“Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6‬:‭13‬-‭17‬ ‭NLT

This week has been a week of intense growth. The adversary has said many lies about the current happenings of my life, especially with the many moving parts of God’s plan around me. Missed opportunities and shifting future impacts and aspirations constantly affecting my life have been weighing heavy on my heart. Potential shifts in different responsibilities as well as perceived competition with others to be “useful” in a role only I can fill has been leading to a major identity crisis. None of this is mentioning the fact that I am thinking heavily towards my issues with lusts of the flesh. Procrastination of Elders Academy work and stepping into the academy on that foot is leading me to even contemplate whether I am called to what I believe I am to be. Who am I? What am I supposed to do? What will I do? Only time will tell. The enemy has been trying to shake me to be ungrateful and bitter, but focus on God needs to be necessary to pass through this tumultuous time in my life. I can’t believe the lies or give in. I am saved by grace and no longer a slave to sin. I have no need to get value from works because my value comes from being made in the image of God. I need to always know who I am in Christ and be fully stable minded in my own life to be able to lead others. I am constantly being reminded to grow towards, and am growing towards, focusing on truth and never wavering in that. I need to put on the belt of truth and keep it buckled on. – Ephesians 6:14.