This week on my journey towards eldership I have been working on self control again. This time it was in relation to my gifting. According to Titus 1:8 I must be self controlled if I am to be an elder:

“Rather, he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self-controlled, upright, holy and disciplined.” – ‭‭Titus‬ ‭1‬:‭8‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I was told by some, I don’t remember who exactly that I have a tendency to let my gifting of organization control me rather than me control it. For context I went on vacation with some youth and it was somewhat disorganized and dirty and it was very hard for me to not get very upset and/or go overboard with trying to control/manage the situation so that it would look organized in a way that made sense at least in my brain. The issue is that it doesn’t exactly always work out the same on vacation since people are trying to relax and aren’t focused as much on being organized as normal. Some of my concerns and things may have been valid, but I needed to be careful with my approach and controlled with my tongue and conduct and everything in my response so as to honor God in all I was doing. The way I grew primarily was by trying not to operate off of those impulses and desires as much as I could and instead living in the tension of wanting to “correct” something but knowing it’s better and wiser to not. Improving this ability in this one area I’m certain will most definitely help with other areas as well so I’ll look forward to that.