This week on my journey towards eldership I have been working on self discipline in my relationship with Elders Academy work. According to Titus 1:8 I must be disciplined if I am to be an elder:

“Rather, he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self-controlled, upright, holy and disciplined.” – ‭‭Titus‬ ‭1‬:‭8‬ ‭NIV‬‬

This week there has been a lot of stress in relation to the elder cadet’s living situation. I have the burden of leading the process where the 4 of us cadets move in together in a coherent manner and I also have to try to navigate general problem solving for this as well. I have to be careful with this though as it can easily be an excuse for me to not work on other things by claiming I am working on this. This last week was quite full of that. The main times I had to work on Academy work I used up fine without issue, but then there were scraps of time I should have used on Academy work but chose to spend some wasted energy on figuring out this project more. I was avoiding Academy work. I wasn’t being disciplined in the process. I need to do the work. I need to do if I am to be an elder regardless of how I feel otherwise the congregation will suffer as a result of my selfishness. This is my first time confessing this, though it still needs to fully be repented of.