This week on my journey towards eldership I have been struggling in my relationship with Elders Academy work still. According to 1 Timothy‬ ‭3‬:‭5 I must be able to manage my own house if I am to be an elder:

“(but if a man does not know how to manage his own household, how will he take care of the church of God?),” – 1 Timothy‬ ‭3‬:‭5‬ ‭NASB2020‬‬

It’s been very difficult to figure out how to balance all the different plates I’m holding. It seems like if I prioritize one area of life, another almost tips and falls, but if I don’t do focus on the first, then the first will fall. It seems like something will fall no matter what. God is teaching me to be more reliant on him rather than myself. God is teaching me to be able to mentally handle the stresses of life and uncertainty of each day. I am learning more about my own insufficiencies and just how much of an impossible task it is for man that I am signing on for that eldership will be. If I don’t figure out how to do properly utilize God’s power and agency within my own life, how can I ever teach others to do this with their lives. May God give me grace, and may I truly be humble enough to learn the lessons he is teaching me and may I be ready and willing to grow because that’s where I need to be at in life. I need to be in prayer especially right now too.